Addiction

Well this isn't a typicaly easy post, but, I think that if it reaches at least one person who has a problem, then maybe it isn't that bad!
My addiction problem started over a year ago. I'm clean today, but it's still a never ending battle.
Addiction, no matter what shape or form you have, is a disease, the Devil in it's most evil state, a fiery infection of your body that can roar out of control if you don't get help NOW.
Many people have addictions. A person can be addicted to Drugs,Alcohol,Food,Sex,Gambling, and many other things. Addiction is not prejudice, it can happen to anyone, no matter what race, sex, or age. It not only hurts the person who is addicted, but the people who care the most about that person as well.
Most people think that addicts are choosing to be that way, so absorbed in their poison that they can't function in normal life. But most of the time, it's not the case. I did not choose to get as bad as I did, I did not chose to keep using, I wanted to stop a long time ago. With addiction comes certain terms that you may or may not have heard.
We have co-dependants, and enablers. They are the feeding ground for most addictions. It's the family members who can't stand to see their loved ones hurting, so they give them money or transportation, or a way to get their addiction fulfilled...
Co dependents rely on eachother wether they are addicted as well or they are depending on one another for the love they think they share...
It's a never ending cycle, and many people cannot overcome it without help.
I got clean through family, particularly my daughter, and the baby I am now carrying. They helped me see that life is greater, more enjoyable, when you are not using. The little angels that I love the most, who know nothing about addiction or the evil in this world, helped me realize that THEY are what's most important to me, not my addiction. It made it that much more easier to overcome the disease. Of course a recovering addict, even if they are clean for years, are never fully rid of their disease. It can fester up at any moment, like a wound that's healing, it can explode within the smallest second. It can rear it's ugly head when you least expect, or want it to. It's not something you ever get rid of for good, it just gets easier to cope with.
So, if you have a problem, and you need help, I suggest you keep reaching out, someone will eventually answer your calls. There's always someone out there willing to help. And those people may not even know they are helping, but they are...
If anyone ever needs someone to talk to, Im here. Ive been through it all. Just ask, I'll be there to listen!